Wednesday Weigh-In: oops

Let me preface this post by saying that I’m not terribly upset today.  I gained 1.4 pounds.  I’m okay with that.

(record scratching)

WHAT?!  How can I be okay with this?  You know me, right?  I should be flipping out right now.

Let me tell you why I’m not.  Last weekend was Kevin’s birthday.  Between two birthday dinners (and the leftover Pappa John’s pizza), I know why I gained. I made poor food choices for three days in a row. 

I also didn’t drink enough water.  I was hooked on my iced tea all weekend.

So, I am okay with the weigh-in.  I know why it happened, I see the results of my choices, and I’m moving on.

On a side note, I know several of you were waiting with baited breath to find out how my exercise has been going.  And, more importantly, how the foot is holding up…

Well, the foot is great, but my knee is all jacked up.  I went to Patient First last night and they think I have bursitis.  Mae, if you’re reading this, tell me it goes away.  You had it in your hip, right?

I have an appointment with a knee person on June 1, so hopefully I’ll get some help then.  I have never had problems with my knees before, so I’m hoping it’s really minor and I just need to do some strengthening exercises.

Or, it could be I’m old now.  35=bad knees???

Wednesday Weigh-In: Non-scale victories

Well, I didn’t jinx myself, but I didn’t lose any weight this week.  I didn’t gain either, so I’m perfectly fine with that too.

What I did gain yesterday was a major non-scale victory…I wore a pair of pants to work yesterday that I have not been able to zip up for over a year!!!  I could care less what I weighed (okay, maybe a little), because that pair of pants was a major motivator for me.

I know I’m skinnier.  I can see it.  This Tracy Anderson person is a crazy machine with all of her jumping and cardio mayhem, but it’s working.  Six days of this and her mat workout….and I’m already skinner??  It can’t be, but it’s true. 

My Weight Watchers subscription runs out this week.  I’m going to go on my own using some apps.  I think I can handle the concepts now, so I’m excited to continue.  Mr. Hall lost a pound this week, so he’s going to keep at it too.

Meet My Owl: A Celebration

In this week’s Meet My Owl, I bring you my celebratory owl from my dissertation defense.  This was given to me by my good friend and colleague, Morgan.  He was hanging in my office from the ceiling, along with several other cute decorations.  Imagine coming back after a stressful defense to a decorated office….it was awesome!

I kept him, of course, and hung him on my bulletin board.  He’s a constant reminder of that happy day!

Time for the existential crisis…

This week marks the very first time in a LONG time that I’m not involved in academics.  What do I mean?  It’s the summer semester and I’m not taking a class, doing an internship, writing a dissertation, or teaching. I don’t have to “ready” my study at home for another round of work.

After zeeeero break between the dissertation and taking on a ridiculous teaching position in the spring, I’m left with a sense of emptiness.  Yes, I’ve heard of people becoming depressed after finishing their dissertations.  I never had that happen, probably because I never took a break.  I work at a university and I started teaching right away.  It really didn’t seem like a big deal to finish.

Now I’m faced with all of this free time.  I don’t have anything to stress about anymore.  No more lesson plans or papers to grade.  I’m not doing ANYTHING this summer.  Fall, well, that’s a different story.  But for now, I have four months of nothing to do when I get home at night from work.  What am I going to do during the weekends now?!

This brings me to my bigger point. Who am I?  If I’m not a student anymore, and I’m not sucked up with class responsibilities, then how do I define myself?  I’ve been a student for 16 years.  Time to decide who I want to be now.  In the present. 

What do you do when a major part of your identity is gone?  Do you replace it with something else immediately or do you allow yourself to discover the new you?  This is what I’m struggling with, people.

I can’t even come up with ways to describe myself without talking about school.  How sad is that?

So here I am, on the cusp of an existential crisis.  Excited to discover the new me but scared that I’ve forgotten the old me in the process. 

I hope I don’t become someone completely different.  I hope people don’t tell me they like me better now.  I hope I can be a better version of myself.  That’s it.

Here’s to the summer.

Wednesday Weigh-In: I could get used to this and a new workout

You know when you start worrying that something could be too good to be true?  After several weeks of losses, I was ready this week for a gain on the scale.  I mean, there’s no way that I can keep losing like this.  I’ve NEVER lost weight this consistently before, even when I was doing Weight Watchers here at work.

Imagine my surprise when I discovered that I lost 1.4 pounds this week!  I thought for sure that I’d either gain or possibly stay the same.  I don’t want to jinx myself- watch next week I’ll gain.  shhhhhh!

At any rate, I’m super excited because now my weight loss is up to 11 pounds!

I decided to start up another attempt at some more organized exercise this morning.  My doctor says I need to be doing some sort of intense cardio at least six days a week.  With the PCOS, she says I’m just one of those unlucky people that needs to be vigilant and the cardio is good for my insulin resistence too.

Specifically, she recommended I do old school dance-type cardio.  No running, walking is okay as a supplement, no spin classes.  I need to be bouncing around and using my body weight to propel myself up and down.

I’ve been putting off the whole new workout plan until I’d been on the new meds for a month, just to be sure that I didn’t do anything too much to inbalance my blood sugar.  Luckily, I’ve had zero problems on the new meds and today I didn’t feel faint or anything.

I hadn’t really heard of dance cardio before, at least in an organized workout program.  I googled and came up with the Tracy Anderson Method.  I guess she’s some celebrity trainer who works with some famous skinnies.

She has a workout system that is a combination of the dance cardio and mat work.  People seem to swear by it, so I’m giving it a shot.

Today, I did 30 minutes of mat work and then 30 minutes of the dance cardio. Other than feeling like my heart was about to explode, I kept up with modifications (read: no jumping the whole time, but I kept up with the arms and legs) and managed to avoid injury.

My initial review of her workout: the mat work seems alot like the Callanetics that I’ve been doing, which was nice.  She focuses a lot on kneeling poses, like on all fours, which was pretty painful after about 15 minutes.  I folded up a towel and that helped.  My wrists hurt a little too, which may be because 1) I have zero upper body strength, or 2) I have really weak wrists.   Her deal is to exhaust all of the little muscles and then move to the other side and repeat.  It was a little confusing because she doesn’t prompt a lot, so I need to watch more closely tomorrow.  For 5AM, I think I did okay.

The cardio DVD was fun.  I like to dance, and it was a little old school.  I got through about 5 minutes of the jumping and was about ready to sit down, so I did a combination of the full cardio jumping and just following along without jumping.

As skinny as this Tracy Anderson is, I don’t see how you couldn’t be super skinny after doing this workout for a few months.

Fingers crossed that my foot stays happy.  Praise to the Metformin gods.

Wednesday Weigh-In

I’m happy to report that I lost another 1.2 pounds this week!  This brings my total weight loss to 9.6 pounds.  I just know I can get to 10 pounds total next week.  I don’t know if it’s the medication or if my body is just responding to my eating efforts, but either way I’m really pleased with my progress.  Kevin has lost 8.5 pounds and I’m really proud of him too.

Our three month online membership to Weight Watchers ends on 5/22, so I’m trying to decide what I want to do when this time runs out.  I think I’m going to go it on my own- there is an app for 99 cents on my iPhone that tracks and does points value calculation.  I just need to get all of my saved points values for recipes down in a booklet before that 22nd deadline. 

I’ve been walking a LOT on campus over the past month.  As the summer begins, I’ll be walking less as committees dissolve for the summer and people are on vacations.  I’m going to need to start doing something organized at home more often or start walking around the lake more.

This week marks one month since I’ve started taking the Metformin.  I’ve noticed a few things that have changed since I started:

1)  I’m not hungry all of the time.  This makes sense if I do have insulin-resistence issues because my sugar levels have probably stabilized.  It’s actually the running joke in my family that if Lisa isn’t hungry, something is wrong in the world.  Have I had this problem my entire life and it just went undiagnosed for the majority of my adult life??

2)  I don’t crave carbohydrates as much. Again, is my body normalizing and not craving sugar/starches in an attempt to regulate itself? 

3)  When I do get hungry, I get HUNGRY and fast.  I notice this more at dinnertime.  I think I need to eat more snacks during the day, even if they are small snacks.

4) I’ve been eating weird things.  Yesterday, I had a yogurt with Grape Nuts for breakfast, some fruit around 11am, a Fiber One bar for lunch (nothing sounds good for lunch lately), some Wheat Thins for a snack, and (get this) two Morningstar vegan burgers and a can of green beans for dinner.  What the heck?

5)  I’m not craving cheese as much.  Not sure what that’s about.

6)  I’m not tired all of the time.  The feeling of dragging myself out of bed and being exhausted by the time I get home has lessened.  Maybe it’s because the days are getting longer.  Not sure, but it’s been a long time since I’ve felt this normal.

Having several weeks of losses has really kept my motivation up to stay on track.

Meet My Owl: Spring Green

Today’s Meet My Owl reminds me of spring.  Maybe it’s his cheerful color.  You know how the first new blades of grass have that bright green color?  That’s this owl.

My bestie, Gretchen, gave him to me some time ago.  He is my second office owl.

Mr. Spring-y owl is super happy and holds my beauty essentials.  Again, note the hand cream.  I really am dry all the time in my office.