I know I said that I didn’t want to get into the details about my fitness right now, but I’ve got to talk this out online to starting making sense of my world.
I’m not sure if you know, but I’ve pretty much been in PT since May of 2011. That’s a long time to be hurt, better, rehurt, better, then pulling my head out of my ass and realizing I wasn’t living in a constant state of injury. I just didn’t have the muscles or neurological connections I needed to be successful and avoid hurting myself.
Since my graduation from PT, I’ve spent the past week thinking about where I go from here. I’ve been thinking about it for a while now. I knew my time with Cori was coming to an end and although I would probably pay her just to rub my hip, all good things must come to an end. It’s time for this girl to be self-sufficient. A year and a half is what it took me to get to this point. I can’t be upset about lost time, frustrated by slow progress, and wishing for things I can’t do right now.
So when I started thinking about myself post-PT, it was hard at first. I could not imagine myself doing anything but rehab, rehab, rehab. Try, fail. Try again, fail. It had to stop. I had to accept where I am at right now and start looking forward with a clear head.
To this end, I’ve come up with what I think will work for me. It’s a four part idea, comprised of aerobic challenge, heavy things, stretching wisely, and agility.
Because of my neurological issues with where I am in space with my feet, I have to go to step class. Twice a week, maybe three times a week. This is good for me because I not only work my legs, which is another issue, but I’m concentrating, listening, and relearning how to move with confidence.
Because of my incredibly weak body, I have to push, lift and pull heavy things. I’ve never been one to worry about getting bulky. I don’t buy into that. Women don’t get big like that without pharmaceutical assistance. I’d like to do a Body Pump class once a week and then do the weights on my own at the gym once a week.
I’m including stretching wisely because I have not been working on flexibility since I hurt myself almost two years ago. It seemed like the more I worked on that, I hurt myself more. Now that I’m getting stronger, it’s time to bring back some smart stretching. Almost four years ago, I was really into hot yoga. I know, it’s crazy, but I didn’t mind the boiling heat and I actually felt like I was working out my muscle kinks more efficiently in that environment. The difference is that this time around I’m going to only go once a week to start for several months and see where that goes. I bought a 10 class punch card so I can go once a week starting in January. That will take me through the middle of March and then I can re-evaluate if it’s working for me. I remember when I first started the hot yoga classes, it took me a good three weeks before I got my stamina up and started to see some strength increases.
Finally, I have to work on my agility. Well, this could be agility, balance, and a slew of other things related to challenging my body to do things that don’t come naturally to me anymore. Cori gave me some ideas and I have some old videos at home where I can do some pilates type work as well. This will be twice a week on my non-step days. When Cori first told me about the agility stuff, I was like, oh I’m on this EVERY DAY. That’s me. All or nothing. Old habits die hard and so would my body if I keep up that crap.
I plan to work 6 days a week and take one day off.
So that’s the plan, people. I’m not giving a goal or a resolution. I just want to be athletic again and hope for the healthiest, best body I can get in the process. Actually, all I’m really after is sweet, gorgeous, curvy muscle, with just enough of a layer of smooth subcutaneous flesh (yes, fat) to provide a nice sweep of feminine goodness. Is that too much for a girl to ask for with neuromuscular issues?